If you are unlucky enough to have come across this site by accident,

I feel for you, really I do.

If you have a faint heart and/or a weak stomach please close this browser now!

    This site is dedicated to a change in lifestyle, a change in health, and a change in the overall mental well being of myself. Farther down this page you will see my rantings as well as pictures of what I have let my body become.

    This comes with two hopes

        1) That you as a viewer will never let yourself go down the road i have been down. It's a long and lonely road that shouldn't be trod except for those that have fallen into a deep depression or refuse to listen to reason.

        2) That my recovery will be recorded for future purposes and that I, and others will be able to know which path NOT to take.

    Ok, set the way-back machine for 17 years ago. Half my life ago. Junior is HS basking in the warmth of the Arizona Sun. hailing from Tempe and active in sports, love and more importantly life. I was physically fit 6'2" 185lbs and when my shirt came off what was seen was a tanned 6 pack, not the fish belly white keg that I see now. I loved people, I loved life, and I loved women. A good combination, or at least I thought so at the time.

    This is what i have become over the last 17 years of my life. same height but now at 203lbs. 12 years in Washington have stripped any semblance of a tan from my body. I have let this disgrace follow me into the deep vortex of my soul. Shown the outside world what i have become, and hated them for the simple fact that they did not appreciate it. I shut myself off from the world around me, forgot everything i loved about and cared for in life. And so my new story starts.

    I wish I had pictures of when i was younger to show you what i had as compared to what i have let myself become. But alas i do not. Seeing as though i am starting over this may be a frivolous wish anyway.

This is the current me, pretty sad isn't it. I've include my stats which does little to  help the situation.

And the current log goes:

April 17th, 2005:

    This is the day that i start my new life. fight my uphill battle for reform. I am going to document everything as the days go by. If I can do this, bare my soul and my laughable body to any unlucky enough to come across this site, and have the strength to continue my fight for change, for love, for happiness, I think anyone can. End of line....